I need help and guidance. Betting out of my means and unit size. Cant stop. Chasing lisses and trying to hit lottos. I have money saved up. Life spinning out of control. Felt like i have a handle but i realize what i am doing but then shit i lost that much and used credir card to gamble. Maxed it out to 6000 and and now i am deep sorrow and depression. 3 day span 3 weeks ago that happened and also lost 5000 in my savings account. Gambling been controlling my life and i have been obsessed with it since sept 1st. I joined a discord and then another discord. Major fomo going on and hits me like ton of bricks and hit big first day $1700. I was up in sept/oct. But got reckless in 3 day span. But betting out of my means and trying to chase and bet higher on plays given out. Feels like my brain is lacking excitement/bored. My impluses have been way out of control. I was taken off wellburtin and been obsessed with gambling. Never been this bad. I feel real real bad and literally sick to my stomach yesterday. I feel awful and sick to my stomach yesterday and have major fomo and makes me ill. Always looking at my phone to see if i won. Major fomo of missing out and possibly hitting big to help me financially and feel good.

I was feeling good and in good mood and was trying to stop on Saturday when i was helping my friend move. I didnt look at phone all day in the discords. I placed maybe $15 total. I wasnt going to look to see if i missed out on others. I left at 500pm. Went to my girlfriends. The next day i couldnt help my myself and was scrolling through the guys i follow for there plays and one of the guys that plays lottos specifically only played 2 plays on Saturday. 2200 and a bomb 23000. Both fucking hit. I was literally ill and almost throwing up. The day i didnt hardly play at all and i joined discords for a reason and a major win happened. The guy that won bet $100 on the both plays. The bomb payed him $37000. I would of bet $20 on each play. Won of won over $8000 and could of payed off 2 cc. I kept telling myself if i hit big i will do good things.