Tl;dr, if I can do it, you can too.

Hey guys, I just wanted to stop in and say that I finally self excluded from the one online casino that I couldn’t control myself on. Idk if I can say it but it rhymes with take. I started posting and y’all were very supportive of the struggle so I want to share this with you.

I found this site dec 28, 2022. My mom’s anniversary of passing is on the 30th and I’m a recovering heroin addict with 9 years clean. I’ve gone through gambling sprees but always raked myself back before 5k. So I think I might have used it to cope and because of it, was hooked.

Well, by the end of February, 2 months in, I managed to have played around 120k. I’ve done well for myself, but not enough to support a 50k a month habit for honestly any amount of time. So, march comes and I look at my finances and somehow I was able to get myself to self exclude, but only for 3 months. During those 3 months I maybe gambled $500, nothing hooked me like that site.

Self exclusion was up about 10 days ago. I’ve been depressed this summer and I went at real bad. I maxed my deposit limit every day and had some good wins, but literally redeemed nothing. I couldn’t stop til I was at zero and couldn’t deposit more. Due to btc’s price, I am no longer a bitcoin whale 10.00000 this was actually a very hard moment for me. It was money I wasn’t supposed to touch and I legitimately was proud of it. I got it back yesterday with the 4k I saved since stopping but it’s what made me ask for help.

I’ve been seeing this new girl I really like. I finally admitted my problem to her and she was horrified at the amount. I was at 178k played when she found out. I told her I’d been trying and failing to self exclude and she did it for me for 5 years!!! I’ve definitely thought about it and have spent a little more frivolously than normal (new Apple Watch today) but with 5 years of exclusion, I hope I can forget about that damned site.

I literally am one of the worst addicts and always have been. First heroin, then adrenaline, then making money, then gambling. My nana gambled 12 million and lived on a stipend from my dad in a house he got her. He hates gambling. So far everything has been from my ledger so he doesn’t know about it. But now he won’t have to. 5 years of $500 a quarter is certainly doable. But if I can do it, you can too. 10 years of heroin if I make it to July 11. 3 days off arguably a more damaging addiction today.