Sorry, this is a bit of a random post. I've just felt the urge and have been wanting to post something like this for over a week now but I was too scared to.

Who am I?

I truly don't know.

Recently I've been struggling with trying to figure out who I am. At this point I still don't fully know who I am, but I am comfortable enough to finally admit what I know and stand proudly behind it. I started GWA as a guy nearly 7 months ago. Before GWA, I believed that men had to be masculine and had to be dominant, no questions asked. With GWA, I learned that I loved be submissive and finally understood that I was bisexual and enjoyed being a sissy/feminine.

My entire life I had identified as a male because that's what I was taught, no questions asked. No a single shred of doubt. However once I got a serious girlfriend (that I met on/through GWA) and started to record GWA almost religiously day in and day out, I realized I had been closed minded and in the dark about so many wonderful things. My eyes were opened to hundreds of kinks I never knew existed, and I wanted to experience every last one of them to find out if I liked them or not. I went into it with the idea that I can't say I don't like a kink until I've at least tried it.

That's when I discovered I very much enjoyed sissification/feminization. As I continued to explore that genre of kink though, I started to get confused. I've always had a dream that my mind would wander to about how my life would be differently if I were born a woman. I remember countless nights as a kid actually wishing/imagining before I went to bed what would happen if I woke up as a female the next morning.

I don't know what I am. Recently I've joked about calling myself the ultimate final form of being a switch. If needed I can be a dominant guy growling in your ear as I hold you down helplessly, or I can be dressed up in a dress, panties, makeup, and a wig and be begging you to fuck my boy pussy. As far as I know, there isn't a word for what I am. If anyone knows the word, then by all means please tell me.

I intend to post audios on GWA where I identify as a female. I can do a feminine voice, and even went as far as sending out test audios to some female friends to get their opinions on if it sounded "authentic" or real enough to pass. I've stressed about recording an audio using my female voice for weeks now because I'm beyond scared shitless of the reaction it may get, but I'm finally going to do one.

I don't know what I am, and I'm honestly curious as to what you guys think. I don't know what "label" to give me. If someone asks, I don't know what to tell them. For GWA purposes I recently asked the mods to change me to the transgender/"queer" tag (according to the mods that's what it's called, but I know it's also used for accounts shared by couples).

I don't know what I am or what to call myself, but I'm proud to finally say it. At times, I identify as a female. It took me 30 minutes to type that sentence, and holy fuck it feels good. Tears of joy and relief are flowing, so I just wanna say thank you to everyone. This is such an amazing community. I don't know where I'd be without y'all.