Keywords: 36 sub, straight male, service-top, shy initially (in convo), live play, details

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Hi!

I'm a 36 year old tall (about 2m) guy with a slim/average body. I have a fulltime deskjob and currently live alone. I consider myself to be straight and I have a tendency to switch; however, I seem to lean towards the sub side of things. and that brings me here...

I'm a fun guy, somewhat shy-seeming in the beginning, but nice to hang around eventually. I enjoy walks in nature, photography and I even read books (sword of truth series anyone?). I play plenty of video games and watch a handful of Netflix shows.

I don't know how this ad is going to work out, but hey, can't know if you don't try.

I am a worrier and somehow mange to overthink things, so detail can be important. That same thinking makes me see 'obstacles' often, which I'll most likely point out. You'll probably have to become the judge to see if those are a real enough issue to take into account.

Similarly, my mind comes up with tons of ideas, which I should probably just 'spam' your way; and you can use what you want from it.. But there too, you'll probably have to become a sort of judge to see if I don't overestimate the possibilities ;)

That mind also seems to become more and more protective. I've seem to slowly lock-up and will need time to 'ease out'. Trust. Communication. Attention.

I currently play online in short bursts via forums, but then I stick to options agreed upon up front only. Maybe, that'll be a way to start, opening up slowly. I don't know. I want to be able to let go again, I'm not sure yet how to.

This may mean that in the beginning I may be looking more for a service-top kind of deal than anything else, though I do want to be able to let go again at some point! -- like giving you a bunch of things you can do, slowly opening up more and more. Can you live with that? Can you enjoy that?

I need someone engaged in what we do, not just 'yeah', 'ok' and seemingly only reading half of the things I may say. I know it sounds selfish, but I want your attention when you (ab)use me!

I enjoy/look for 'live' play mostly, where I am in contact with you while I do things. You will be able to see me do things on cam, or have photo-proof in other situations. It will help a lot if occasionally I see/hear you as well. I'm not asking you to get naked or going to judge your looks, I just like seeing there's a person there.

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A very short and incomplete summary of my likes/limits may be useful. I suppose a lot is vague still and/or will become vaguer over time. A list of things is usually hardly explanatory enough to give you a good idea, often something needs explanation; but you need to get a general idea of what you're responding to.. In addtion to this I've filled out one of those 'kinklists', https://i.imgur.com/Hft5PiB.png

Likes: Anal, Denial, Bondage, Semi/Hidden public, Games

Limits: Face (in time maybe..), poo, blood, ageplay, findom, extreme pain/permanent scarring, blackmail, videos/recordings (live webcam is fine) - I'd also prefer to remain alive ;)

Toys, I have a lot and this list is also far from complete but lists most important ones: Ropes, chains/locks, dildos, buttplugs, fucking machine, wand, flogger, crop, paddle, clamps, gags, cockrings...

Other than the initial Reddit Chat/Messages, I have several options to continue this conversation including discord, kik, telegram and skype.

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I look forward to hearing from you :D