Now, this is the point where I normally think "why the fuck am I even typing this brain fart, I can't sum up my world view, lust desires in a thesis let alone a Reddit post", but here I am, going against my better judgement, in the hope of something that feels human.

"Hmm, ok". I hear you say, but what I mean is, how many times do you wish you'd approached someone but let it slide? I know I've had those moments of what if. Perhaps they're driven by our urges and desires more than anything else. Or perhaps not.

I feel that I'm wasting my opportunity at life by passing those I don't know. Yes, I'm also the guy that can't be arsed with the Christmas work party because, well, who wants forced fun with people you have nothing in common with? No one cares that you've booked time off or if you're going to see your mother who's hard work at the best of time in the arse end of nowhere. Respectfully, do me a favour. Nope.

I don't know, I have a personality type of INFP and am ambivert at heart, so I flow on the level of others. I give the energy I receive back. And I'm perfectly aware that this is a bit whiney so far. What I'm trying to say is that I like people, honest genuine people who understand themselves, accept the contradictions they are and embrace everything with a positive look on the world.

Yes I too will be having Christmas dinner with a bunch of family, but that's cool and you don't need to feign interest. I have space in my life to focus on the indulgence of pleasure. Mutual pleasure. Where we can understand our wants and desires without the confineds of judgment. We'd define those ourselves.

I'm not looking for love, I have that. I'm looking for excitement, I'm looking forward to the ping on my phone when you message, to crave the time we spend together. I don't know what it's called but to me it's just two people being themselves and ending the ride.

I don't claim to have a 50ft cock that I'll fuck you to kingdom come, erm no. What I can offer is genuine attention, kindness, empathy, respect and understanding. Live your life, if you're looking for some occasional indulgence, let's see if some of the things we want align. ✌️☮️