I really am not sure what I really want. I sometimes think I want a relationship, sometimes just sex, sometimes a connection and friendship. Anyhow, I figured that what I really want to have in life is confidence and self esteem. Working on that would help me figure a lot of things about myself. And I thought posting this would be perfect since I also feel so horny most of the time.

The trouble is being so horny but I can't let these thoughts out due to a fear of judgement but I cannot deny that despite appearances, I do feel extremely horny and it gets accentuated when I see hot guys walking around. And I fantasise about them. But then I think of myself and my low self esteem gets the worst of me. I think I'm talking a lot here, but do you get my point? We can chat a lot more in the dms.

I want a gentle dom who understands my insecurities and helps me grow in my journey whilst having fun together. I'm open to it being more than that as well. I just want a kind, empathetic, emotionally available lad who is also incredibly horny like me. I'm very emotional and sensitive so I need someone who can work with that, I can of course try to be better. All I want is working on myself, being better, lose weight, get sexy and confident and have loads of fun along the way.

I've a fantasy of being with a tall white athletic guy, no shame of admitting it here though I would've been scared of saying that irl. Perhaps a gym goer or a sportsperson sounds absolutely hot. But I love lean athletic guys so much.

And I have a fantasy of being passionately railed by a sexy tall rugby player or a confident gym goer. The confidence, the charisma and charm in my guy would unleash my horniness more and I'd be confident. That's what I'm looking for- to help my horniness and gain confidence by being in company of a man I deem sexy. Also, posh accent turns me on. The colonial effect I guess since I'm not English myself. So if you're someone that matches this description and are interested, please.get in touch. Even if you don't match it perfectly, I'd still love to hear from you if our thoughts and energy match. I want to feel chemistry oozing out of our acquaintance.

About me: I'm short, 5'3", brown with a brown cunt ;) (sorry that sounds disgusting and awful but reddit anonymity let me say that), am a size 12/14, not conventionally attractive, just alright looking, nerdy with glasses. I'm not very fit myself, a bit chubby with thick thighs, a flabby tum and a chunky bum. Nice bouncy tits tho ;) Love reading, have incorporated my hobby of.reading with my horniness by reading smut ;)

Also like walks, nature, writing, languages and writing and collecting postcards. My kinks are several and include passionate railing and pounding, leg locking, creampie and a bit of risk play, breeding, mild raceplay, being dominated in bed, face sitting and being eaten out, being teased, orgasm denial,.gentle fucking and lovemaking etc.

If that sounds like something you'd like, shoot me a load, sorry a dm ;) xx