A couple of years ago I had an edging dom who only let me have ruined orgasms. When you push yourself over the edge and stop all stimulation. Your cum just dribbles out. It's so frustrating, but at least it's some release! He said submissives like me should only ever have ruined orgasms. I guess he knew what he was doing, cause I always feel like I'm stepping out of line whenever I have a full orgasm. Even now I only have ruined orgasms. I had a few full orgasms since then and each time it felt wrong, like I didn't deserve it.

Sometimes I get jealous when I see normal guys keep stroking as they cum and squeeze out every last drop. But, I know my place, and I try not to question why the world is unfair. I'm happy I at least get some release after a long edge.

If you have the right to have full orgasms, I hope you enjoy each one! You don't know how lucky you are to have been born free to do so 🙂