I am a 43 year old woman.

I am single, and I like it that way.

Sex Work is my side hustle

I am Autistic, and I have ADHD

I'm an artist, seamstress, crocheter, and poet.

I have a bunch of art degrees.

I smoke meth everyday.

I don't always feel sexually aroused just because of meth, but I am more reactive to touch. However, sometimes I do become incredibly amorous, but all I want to do is masturbate. I would have sex with someone, but there's not anyone in my life right now.

It would be easy enough to PnP, but to be perfectly honest, all of you tweaked out men turn me off with your sleazy, single minded, one sided, "it's all about me, my dick, and my satisfaction" sexual aggression.

Not one tweaked out dude has thought to ask me if I want to see them naked, and blowing clouds, before they decide to follow me on Instagram, and then video call me, completely nude, after I post a cloud video in one of the meth related subs.

I'm always clothed, and never am I requesting company, or insiuating, implying, or giving any indication that I'm interested in any type of sexualized attention, or exchange. It's just me having fun getting dressed up, and making a video.

I wish all the horny tweaked out dudes of these sub Reddits would learn to be more subtle, and considerate, but it doesn't matter in the end, because if a man is high on meth- despite being a user myself- I will not have sex with him.

Meth might make a man horny, but it doesn't make him any better at performing the mutual exchange that sex should be. I have found that it makes men worse than what most of them already at sex, because they are completely unconcerned about me.

So I masturbate, and it's so much better than having a smelly, sweaty, painting man deliver a trust session that has already lasted far too long, five minutes in.

So I masturbate.

Did this post disapoint you?

Good. That was it's intention.