My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 terminal cancer.. Melanoma that metastasized and now is in his lungs, lymph nodes, and bones.. I’m a wreck. My dad raised me since I was a born (my mom abandoned me, and I never seen her again) so my dad is my best friend, my partner in crime. It’s always been us. They said without treatment he has 18-24 months but with treatment it could be better. But he’s in so much pain bc his back has taken a lot of damage form the cancer.. I feel so guilty for being upset because how can I feel so sad when he is the one that has to leave without a choice.. my heart is completely broken. I hate leaving him when I go over for our weekly dinners bc what if it’s the last one we have? I don’t like hanging up the phone bc again what if I never get a call from him again.. he keeps telling me to be strong and he’s not going anywhere that he has so much to live for. He’s only 51.. (I never show my emotions about this around him) but I just feel so helpless watching the strongest man I ever know in so much pain, and so worried (he tries to hide it but I can tell) I just hate this and I hate cancer 😭😭