I’ve been in love with one of my best friends for almost 3 years, and I don’t know why I still hold on to that hope even though she doesn’t feel the same. I just have this feeling that’s she’s the one for me. Whether or not that is true or will happen, I don’t know. I’ve been interested in other people but end up coming back to her, usually because they don’t show any interest in me, and the people that have shown interest in me, I just don’t have that connection or attraction. We’ve had a close relationship for years, I just don’t know how to change the way I look at her from being romantic to platonic.

It’s been hard. It sucks. It hurts. I want by one the guy that treats her right and care for her cherish her. I want to love her, to hold her, and to care for her. But I know thay will probably never happen. It kills me knowing that. I’ve had friends who have been in similar situations and have ended up getting their partner out of them, while I feel hurt, wondering “why hasn’t it happened to me?”. I know it doesn’t happen to everyone, but I always seem to be screwed over.

I need to just focus on myself and work on myself, I don’t know where to start, though.