I just want to say that this is my experience. I definitely don't speak for anyone else and don't want to endorse or promote any kind of consent violation.

For me though, the journey into free use has also been one of pushing limits. My limits and when I've had partners, my partners limits. I'm drawn to free use now as a lifestyle and a mindset but that hasn't always been the case. In college, I dabbled, but it took a hard push to throw me all the way down the rabbit hole.

This weekend, my boyfriend's brother will be coming to stay with us. His plane arrives soon and we'll be picking him up. I've talked to my boyfriend a lot about what it would mean if his brother wanted to sleep with me, and what would happen if he did. He's really struggled with the idea that it's possible I might share a sexual experience with someone in his family and that I wouldn't stop his brother if he showed an interest. For me, i've really struggled with what that would mean for our relationship and my free use lifestyle. I can honestly say I started today ready to end things and move out of his apartment, but unprompted by me my boyfriend admitted he wants to see where this will go, and is ready face the possibility.

I don't know what will happen, likely nothing, but it once again highlights for me how free use is really the ultimate counter culture, and at it's core expands love, compassion, and empathy. It opens people in unexpected ways. It forces uncomfortable moments and conversations sometimes, but I'm always growing, even when it's just a thought experiment.

I guess we'll see where the weekend goes. I'm sorry this is more of a mental post than a sexual one. I'm high and happy, and just felt like I needed to share. I'm excited to see where this lifestyle takes me next.