Basically the titles says it all, but if you have time let me explain my situation.

I’m from Dominican Republic, have a few friends that started trading beginning of the pandemic and some of them have been very successful, some of them shared with me a few curses and I started studying this year, to be more precise I started studying on Feb 1st.

Been learning a LOT and after noticing a good strategy could be soooo scalable I’ve gotten a little obsessed with becoming profitable, by March I was already paper trading and last month I was very successful in the demos I took, getting 1000 pips trades in some long and short positions, I’m more focused in intraday and sometimes scalping.

This month I decided to increase the level of difficulty and decided to pay for a challenge, BIG MISTAKE, after 3 days I failed, it was bad, I feel defeated, taking the loss personas, I went back to Demo, back to study, finished some courses of smart money concept, offer and demand, and again, in the demo it was success after success, I started with a very conservative lot size and then increasing my lot size on my A setups and had an increment of 15% in my main demo, I only trade Gold and EURUSD and some others USD pairs. I decided to buy another challenge and same thing happened, as soon as I open a position and the spread puts me against me I felt nothing but terror, I noticed I was even shaking a little bit lol, I’ve been listening to Mark Douglas and I understand I’m just starting but is hard to believe that one can get so nervous, I don’t think the problem has anything to do with my strategy, I think it’s 100% my execution and my terror what’s messing me up, this morning for example if I would’ve follow my trading plan I would’ve passed phase 1 with a couple trades but my terror fucked me.

If there’s anything you guys would recommend I’d really appreciate it, books, tips, whatever, thank you so much for your help and sorry for my English, is not my main language.