Anyone else annoyed at how they thought they needed to make it their number one priority to make a man happy? Even if that meant putting aside one's own desires?

I was not raised in a traditional household, and yet for some reason I wanted to become "the perfect woman/wife" and please men (and everyone else, but especially men) to the fullest. When I was very young, like 12 or 13 and I would wonder about being intimate with a guy in the following years (spoiler, never happened lol), I would think "well, if the guy wants it then it is my duty to oblige and not wait for marriage".

I would have done EVERYTHING for a guy if he showed me the least bit of interest. And now I am SO SO glad that I was never taken advantage of. I guess guys not being attracted to me was such a blessing in disguise.

At 18 I joined a very traditional new age hindu cult (Hare Krishnas/Iskcon). They preach misogynistic and super old fashioned beliefs aka "women need to be always 'protected' by a man" (aka controlled), "women need to be chaste and pure", "girls don't need much schooling, they need to learn (amongst other women of course, no boys) about household affairs and how to raise a family". I so badly wanted to get married young and have kids. Once again, SO SO glad this didn't happen.

Now I look back and I may be pretty much completely inexperienced at 27 but THANK "GOD" (lol) I am where I am now, and not a single, fucked up mother who is miserable and can't take proper care of her kids.

Of course this goes for people idolizing any partner of their choice, regardless the gender.