I am too nervous to go on dating websites. I don't get out much because I have social anxiety so I tried reddit and whisper where I can talk to people and get comfortable. A few times I have been comfy enough to share my picture. But man I must be fairly hideous because people drop off quick.

I've tried front loading hey I'm a big girl. Not much of a looker. I've tried just sending and not commenting or making any type of self deprecating remarks. And I don't know. I just seem to be bad with men in general.

Honestly it just makes me feel worse. And I'm a big girl but I'm a work in progress. I've slowly dropped about 80lbs and I'm still working at it. I don't know. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone. I thought I was on with that idea for a long time but now I'm not so sure.