Bonus points if Jim Carrey popped into your mind as soon as you read the title :)

So, I tried posting before, a long time ago but it didn't work as I hoped, but after some time I'm ready to give it another shot, so here it goes.

As stated above, I'm a 31 year old fella, living in Turkey right now (though I have a lot of free time and a pretty bizarre sleeping schedule so pretty much any timezone would be fine), I'm an IT graduate, also did a masters in UK before returning to my country, and now I'm looking to be a streamer. 1.90m (I believe that's about 6'3 if you prefer to measure things with your feet :p) and somewhat on the chubby side, but hopefully not for long (new years resolution gym memberships are over the roof :p (- a little update on that, I lost like 20kg since the new years eve so it's going pretty well -) . Overall I'd say I'm a rather chill and carefree person, can't say I'm very ambitious or competitive, I'm more the supportive and nurturing type.

As you would probably expect on Reddit, I'm kinda nerdy and I'm a huge gamer (PS4/PS5 and PC, with about 700 games in library, yet you can still occasionally find me complaining that I can't find anything to play :p) , I love games with a passion :) To me they're nothing short of another form of art, and much more than a simple pastime. I am planning to be a streamer soon (when my situation allows it, currently I'm in the middle of a moving process) as I have a desire to share these experiences which are special and unique to me, so I guess it is fair to say that it would be a huge plus if you're also a gamer in some way or another.

I play a bit of everything but I don't really enjoy competitive games too much, but co-op games are right down my alley :) I mostly like RPGs and story driven games, huge FF fan, some other favourites would be God of War, Uncharted, The Last of Us, Dota 2, Hades, Portal, Death Stranding, RDR, Subnautica, GTAV, Skyrim, Hearthstone, Slay the Spire, Divinity, No Man's Sky, Disco Elysium, XCOM... okay, you know what, I don't think this list will stop anytime soon so I'll cut it short here, but you get the picture :p

I also love chess (would absolutely love to play with you if you know how to) , football, snooker, reading some fantasy novels or interesting historical facts occasionally, also cinema and music. Music has a big place in my life, and I have a wide variety in my musical taste, and would love to exchange some songs :) My "liked songs" probably looks like a rollercoaster ride, it can go from opera to metal, then classical music into a western movie theme, anything goes :p And cinema.. I have many big title movies that I ought to watch, some of them would be really ashaming to admit that I still have not, but still haven't because I didn't want to do it alone, so maybe we could have some movie nights occasionally? I love the idea of watching stuff together in general.

Also, I love animals! I don't have a pet right now but I've had various pets throughout my life such as chicks, fishes, birds, rabbits, a tiny turtle briefly, and a cat. And I want a Shiba Inu in the future, I love their chubby cheeks and silly smiles so much :) They doin' me a fascinate. ( Update on this: A pregnant stray cat kinda chose my balcony as her spot a few months ago, and I've been feeding her so now I have 4 kittens living in my balcony :))

I'm not a very outgoing person, on most days you can safely place a bet on me being at home. This is partly because I don't have any friends in the vicinity, I moved to a city where I literally don't know anyone other than family, and it's not easy for me to meet people with shared interests, so I try my luck online instead.

What else.. oh, I'm an atheist. I try to be respectful towards everyone's religious views as long as they don't try to shove them down my throat and convert me or condemn me etc, but I'd probably get along better with someone who's also not so religious, I suppose.

Ok, here come the important bits:

I've had a pretty lonely life and the few relationships I did have in the past always left me disappointed and frankly appalled at how people can be so rude to someone they care/cared about. But I can also say that those experiences made me realize more about who I am and what I want, and taught me to recognize and appreciate the honesty, openness, loyalty, kindness and compassion in people and I value that, and I think those would be the best things I have to offer (especially honesty is very important to me, I need to stress that). I think I'm a very gentle and caring soul who just yearns to find that special person to cherish my time with and share everything. I'm a hopeless romantic that thinks love is a very special thing and pretty much gives everything else their meaning. I want someone to share my day with, laugh together and cry together, someone to laugh at my silly puns and dad jokes ( so hopefully my goofiness could be something you enjoy, not something you 'tolerate') as well as have deep philosophical conversations with me every now and then. Someone who is open to share who they are, and someone I can be comfortable around and can just be myself with and trust completely.

Of course, I also know it takes time and effort to reach that level, and I think respect and communication should be the foundation of a good relationship. I always prefer to talk things out and be proactive and mature, rather than burying any issues, so I really appreciate straightforward people. I absolutely hate unnecessary drama and vanity. I'm willing to make the effort to really get to know someone and form a deep connection, so I'd hope for you to also be willing to make an effort and spend some time to get to know me, fair enough right?

Naturally, nobody is perfect and I have my flaws. I think one is probably my shaken self-esteem in certain aspects, and perhaps a slight fear of abandonment that lingers on from previous bad experiences. Being a romantic and sensitive guy with stupid ideals makes me a bit too naive and vulnerable I guess, because I often don't know how to deal with the rudeness displayed by people, and I'm afraid to think if I "toughen up" and become insensitized that would also mean losing touch with who I really am deep beneath, which is not what I want. So I really, genuinely want to be in the company of kind hearted souls, respectful and emphatic. If that sounds like you, then I'd be happy if we get to know each other better. But if you're the kind of person to "ghost" people, please spare us both the trouble and stay away, I find it extremely rude and disrespectful and nothing hurts more me more than that, I hate that this kind of rudeness is so common and accepted as a "norm" in today's society. I wish everyone could just be nicer and more respectful to each other.

As one of my favourite movie quotes goes: "The world's a playground. You know that when you are a kid, but somewhere along the way everyone forgets it." So I seek someone who managed to keep that kid alive within :)

I'd be up for a long distance thing as we get to know each other and grow closer over time, and see where it goes, not exactly in a rush. I think it can be a good starting point because it allows us to focus on each other's thoughts and feelings and personality, rather than sex, and if you can love someone for those qualities then it can be a solid and lasting relationship. And if we don't seem to click on that level, we can always be good friends too.

In short, if you're a kind, talkative, honest and witty person I'd like to know you!