It’s been awhile, y’all.

But, I’m back and as broken as ever. I had a date set up today, my first in literally months. Months since I cut chords with my ex. The first time I felt.. actually excited about something. I am going to be completely honest with you right now - I am a complete mess. It’s just been the last two days or so that I’ve actually wanted somebody in my court.. somebody who would show me a good time, get me a piercing, go sing karaoke at the bar, get to know each other. Things just haven’t been going my way. I found out I won’t get my unemployment money until next week. I’ve been having a terrible time getting appointments with the specialists that I need. I actually broke down in tears today because this person I had talked to all night about having this awesome beach day today ended up ghosting me for no reason. I’m living on cigarettes and Xanax right now and I just.. really need somebody in my corner. I just dyed my hair blue and I even bought some make up to get dolled up for a date that never happened. It really broke my heart. But, you know, I’m 27. I should know better than to put so much hope into a stranger. I love physical affection. I love to be held and I think I need it. Going out for a bit to get a piercing and maybe some Food then going to your place for a cuddle fest watching horror films is my ideal date. Even better if you get something at the shop too. Oh, and don’t worry. Once I get my money, I will absolutely take you on a date too!

So, here are some good things about me: I’m an ex-chef who enjoys cooking for people, I love singing, I have a wonderful service dog named Odin who loves all creatures, I’m extremely educated and outgoing. I do have some “stuff” on me to share. I am pretty much sober, so I don’t mind being DD. I’m a bartender who is obviously having a really hard time finding work. I love true crime, all sects of anthropology, abnormal psychology, serial killers and mass murders, survival skills, avid hiker, dog trainer, loving and affectionate. Will cook for you.

I just really need someone to pick me up out of this depression I slid into. That may be asking a lot, but it’s temporary. I’ll be fine. It’s just been a hard day.

You: 27-39, strong arms and beards are my favorite, someone who enjoys horror as much as I do, no kids bur love fur babies, must host, plan on no sexual activity the first time around just because I’ve been essentially asexual for the last couple months and need to adjust back into things.

I know I’m asking for a lot.. I’m just hoping somebody will see through my mess of a life and head and want to help me as much as I will be able to help them.

This is Odin and I and my hair is blue now! :D