Hello,

I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for a long time. There were moments when I felt so low, I can't really enjoy life anymore. The topics people talk about, their lives, their expectations, and their entertainments just don't resonate with me. But that doesn't mean I'm not living. I've realized that I experience life differently. I haven't found anyone like me around, but I hope, even fearfully, that there are others like me in distant countries.

I can no longer handle crowds and noise. If I find myself in such an environment, I want to escape immediately. Unfortunately, I also struggle with people who talk a lot because they expect me to talk a lot in return, and they get upset when I don't. I sometimes enjoy joking and doing silly things, but I can't laugh at most things anymore. I need someone who won't pressure me to talk or act differently, someone who won't ask, "Why aren't you talking? Why aren't you laughing?". I just want to live life silently, if that makes sense.

I've always felt socially awkward and tried to be like others, but that never worked out. I'm still trying to find myself and understand who I am, and I think I need support to accept and love who I am. I feel like I'm on a spiritual journey and would love to connect with other souls on the same path.

I'm looking for someone who is sensitive and emotional, honest, who does what's right rather than what most people want, who isn't addicted to social media, has their own opinions, and isn't influenced by status, looks, or superficiality. Someone who doesn’t put people into boxes with thoughts like "women should be like this, men should be like that."

My biggest dream is to find a partner or a friend like me, to travel together, connect with other souls on our journey, and help them too (and help ourselves).

I don't know what will happen, but I believe it's worth trying.