Hey there! I am a demi-sexual trans feminine nb (she/her) goth lady, I am 33 years old and located in Northern Europe. I currently try to become a music producer, songwriter and musician on a professional basis and I have already managed to form a small but dedicated fanbase that enjoys my music on a regular basis. Outside of my original music, I do create some fan-covers and fan-remixes of my favorite metal artists. In general, I am currently deep into the production of rock and metal music, ranging from gothic rock to industrial metal and some alternative rock and metal. Since I don't want to advertise my music here, I keep this as vague as possible but I think you should get an idea that I embrace the darkness in most of my songs.

In real life I would consider myself to be rather awkward and anxious. I am deep into the neuro divergent spectrum and whenever I am in public, I try to mask in order to make things work. I am socially fully out for over one year now and in public I usually present myself as binary female, even though I myself feel more like an androgynous or even non-binary female person.

I would say that I am a person with ambitions. I am working on my ideas on an almost daily basis but taking care of myself and taking rests has become a huge and important part in the last two years since I've had a very stressful career in the IT industry which I've abandoned in order to pursue my dreams. I do appreciate people who have dreams and goals and who are working hard to achieve them. It is needles to say that it would be a huge plus if you are having some similar vibes here. It doesn't matter in what kind of field you are working but I highly appreciate creative people with goals.

Self-care and mental health awareness is very important for me and after having gone through a very hard time, I am finally making huge progress and constantly put in lots of effort to become a better person. We all have our burden to carry so for me accepting the past and trying to move on by making my future a better place has become the most important aspect in my journey. It is needless to say that I would love to have a companion by my side who wants to go on that journey to me together, because I think this is the last piece in the puzzle that is missing in order to make it perfect for me. It does not matter if you are imperfect because time and effort can make anything perfect.

Besides music and creativity I am a huge nerd for RPGs, both offline and online. I am also into TTRPGs and have been creating my own worlds and campaigns for many years now. In terms of actual video games, I mainly play ARPGs and CRPGs and some old JRPGs from the 90s and early 00s (SNES, PS1, PS2 mostly) as they are my comfort games. I'm not that kind of adventurous when it comes to playing fancy new games after having literally played thousands of games in my teens. I do prefer playing games solo or in a duo with a person that I know and like. Group situations inside and outside of games barely work for me (except for D&D sessions with people that I've known for a good time; I am not exactly good with strangers, hahaha).

Well then, now let's come to the more important part of this posting: What am I looking for? I am strictly and only looking for an exclusive mono long-term relationship with a mature person. Anything between 20-40 works for me as long as you're a clever and emotionally intelligent person that is more of a female-leaning person (since I just vibe better with girly people and women in general). Distance doesn't matter but timezones do. I am based in Europe and mostly active during the afternoon and evening. Quality time is super important for me, especially when we can have long calls on Discord together or even play or watch something together.

I should mention that I am a rather calm person that prefers to stay at home and you should have a somewhat similar lifestyle. Party people are not really a match for me. I am also not into politics at all and talking non-stop about whatever bad things happen all over the world just doesn't work for me. Been there, done that, got a huge burnout.

I do prefer finding someone who wants to become my stay-at-home partner most of the time, as I myself prefer to just focus on work and earning money. I am a bit old fashioned there and I'd say I am quite in love with the idea of having a lovely partner at home that really enjoys taking care of my needs, while I work hard to enable us a good and peaceful life.

One last note: I will only accept serious requests. Please message me through chat request and DM and make your first approach/message as informative as possible. You don't need to expose yourself but I'd really love to get a good basic idea of whom I am dealing with. If you are a throwaway or just someone with a poor post history on reddit, I especially mean you. Simple "hey"s and "hi"s will be ignored.

I am not looking for guys or masculine-leaning people. Obviously bigots and queerphobe people in general are not welcome at all.

If you have come this far, you get bonus points if you include your favorite artist/band and your favorite color in you introduction.

Alrighty, that's it for now ^_^ Have a nice and lovely day an hopefully see you soon <3