So, I am feeling kind of down at the moment, figured it'd be a perfect time to get my most vulnerable thoughts out there. I just feel kind of hopeless, especially as a guy, no one really approaches you or pursues you as a guy. I just want to feel desired ya know? I am a handsome guy, intelligent but I think it makes people nervous, a good amount of separations and negative experiences of people getting close then disappearing kind of does a number on you ya know? I feel as a man I have no inherit worth, no value unless I offer something or have the looks and that my personality and who I am matters very little, I feel I am always the one to pursue, I want someone to pursue me, I want someone clingy that I can reassure and make feel comfortable, because I know the feeling and I am also tired of just hurting and being constantly harassed by catfish, I just want some love and healing in my life from someone equally as kind as me, someone to take the lead for once and let some of the pressure of me because of gender roles

It's not all that bad but I just wanted to put my deepest thoughts and vulnerability out there, we are all human here, we all have our struggles. I just want someone to desire me for who I am, someone committed to the relationship, to weather life together, I think maybe I have the wrong idea of relationships, maybe I am too "Disney" in my approach. I have felt love before, but I think it was more infatuation then anything else, what I need is a healthy relationship dynamic. Maybe one that isn't so conventional, something new and not your typical gender roles, just where it's two people coming together but I admit I am only attracted to women, I have plenty of guy friends as it is and I love them very much but I am still a straight heterosexual male

Anyway, all I have left to say is.. just get to know me, explore my deepest inner spaces, I am kind, gentle, respectful, polite, intelligent, goofy and yes I have flaws too, I can be moody, negative, pessimistic but also positive and optimistic too. I just ask that someone gets to know me and I am also a great listener too and I want to know someone else on a deep level as well.

thanks for reading :)