"Your such a nice guy"

"Your such a great guy, why are you single?"

"Your husband material, why are you single?"

"Your a great guy, someone who I would want to be with eventually"

"You deserve better"

These words and lines feel nice in the moment, but will leave a deeper void, much more pain than before, with a heavy lump in the throat and a feeling like knife jammed straight into the heart.

Obviously, they are not in the wrong for saying no to me.

But, those words leaves me emptier, make me feel uglier, make me think Iare stupid than I think I am.

If only there was a way to stop or kill a part of me that longs.

I guess suppressing these feelings and hoping that they wont come back again like a tidal wave is all that I can do and for the best for the rest of my life.