Or, in other words, being sexually invisible. Once again, I match with someone, and once again they're a scammer. This is the last thing on my bucket list. I've vowed to myself once this happens, I'll accept my fate and live with being forever alone. But I just want to experience it once. That's it.

I've never had a problem making friends. Coworkers seem to like me well enough. But it's like, once I asked for the opportunity to be a sexual being, I turn INVISIBLE. I can attract trans people, I can attract men(nothing wrong with those two groups, but I can't seem to attract women, people I'm actually attracted to), I'm attractive enough for sex workers(if they aren't just scammers), I can attract scammers. But it seems like when I ask the universe 'is anyone attracted to me for me?' the answer is no. My sexuality is invisible.

I'm 6 pounds off of my lowest weight, and 10 pounds away from what I think the optimal weight for me is. But even if I do that, I can't change my skin color.

I plan on leaving the country in a couple years, the dating climate being part of the reason, but ugh....