Without making this post a couple pages long.

I know most of us are here because we feel like we will never find our "partners" for lack of a better word.

But is it just me who feels ABSOLUTELY ALONE?

A good example is, I just started a new job. Everyone is so nice to me, almost too nice. I feel like they are putting in on over me. Playing me. So needless to say I'm kind of struggling. Its not that I want to be treated like shit.

Its that my remaining family, the ones I am stuck with. They have never really shown a damn.

The ones who loved me are gone now. Crossed over. The ones who believed in me.

Its just hard for me to accept that anything is real. That there isn't an ulterior motive.

Im not sure who to trust. Definitely don't know who to turn to anymore.

I am just going keep to trying to find my pack. As hard as that might be, readjusting, might be the real trick. At least it seems to be to me.

Im sorry for all of us out there who feel this way. Or maybe its just me, im still sorry.