I don't give a f when people kept telling me that 'you have to love yourself before other's can love you!' or you need to learn to be happy on your own'.... bitch how?!! I've beeeeen along all this time, I dont wanna be fucking alone anymore, like what's the purpose of this laifu when there's no husbando (I wanna say waifu but I'm a grill) Like I don't even wanna live this pathetic life of mine, I don't see any reason why I'm working hard on my job just to end up alone, like I don't enjoy any of this, I don't have any passion or something that makes me wanna wake up in the morning.

at least if I ever have a bf, I would have a lot of reasons to wake up to, like I would have a sense of purpose, I would have something that I don't wanna leave. My whole life all I want is a family to call my own, why does it have to be so fucking hard to meet someone??