I wish I wasn't so fugly and dumb maybe someone will like me and be into me, I just wish someone who have a freak fetish would be interested in me, I wish someone could accept the garbage that I am. I've heard every advice on how to get someone, socialize improve yourself have a hobby.. well no shit I did tried them all but still isn't working I'm alone as ever and all I could do is pity myself.

Tbh because of all the bullying and the trauma I went through I developed all kinds of mental illness and I turned into a disgusting human turd inside, so not just ugly outside but inside match my face. Is this the reason why I'm single?? But I've seen people who belong in the trash can get an S.O just because they're decent looking, I try to be better actually, as a person but sometimes all these built up rage inside me would come out and shits will flip, anyways I'm just bitter about life because I'm alone I wish someone would just give me a chance to be with them then I will happily embrace corona virus with all my heart.