I never was truly attractive both physically or personality wise. That is, until I lost weight, and suddenly things changed around me, but I didn't. I was still unable to talk to females without falling in love, and I didn't know how to talk to people.

But I decided to try and become one of them.

Similar to how normal people socialize and meet and greet, go out once in a while and simply wander.

I used to wander through my city and simply meet people.

I never really made small talk, never stood for a few second with people if I had to.

I always did what I had to do, and stayed with it. Just hoping to find social contact that I would like.

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I did the same at work:

I worked at a warehouse-like context: Distributing merchandise to multiple big named companies.

I worked in every single department, learned every program, became a master of every type of machinery, and knew enough to become a key associate for the entire building. But I always remained quiet... Quiet enough to be called the "Machine."

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Sometimes girls would try to talk to me since I was very well known throughout the building, but I always shied away since I knew it was for shallow or often obvious reasons for contact. I learned how shallow people work. Had I been the way I was before, they wouldn't have cared. I didn't have any friends, and I always sat at the break table alone. My only joy came from being the only one to know how to do everything and how to be the best.

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Then one day someone came in and was too afraid to talk to me. She ignored me.

She didn't know how to talk to me.

Similar to how I couldn't find a way to talk to her.

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Sometimes, she and I would sit next to each other and never speak a word. She would look at me when she thought I wasn't looking, and I would try to somehow talk to her when she was walking away.

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Finally, after seeing loads of guys flirt and try to get into her pants, I tried to say something...

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I wrote a note stating that I wanted to start talking, and slid it to her in a small bottle.

A note in a bottle.

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From that moment forward, my life has changed.

She and I have spoken every day for the past two years. Freeze up together when anyone talks to either of us, and we both crave being away from people. We get lonely, and seek each other. We both are clingy AF, and we know this. Sometimes, she and I feel like we're the only ones that know how it feels like to be alone and unwanted every day, and feel it melt away when with each other.

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She always thought she'd be alone, same as I, and now we're alone together.

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There are others like us.

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Good luck guys.