When I graduated high school, most friends moved away, and what 'friends' stayed wanted nothing to do with me when I tried to reach-out.

I spent 2 years without a single friend except for my best friend from childhood, who moved far away when we were 12.

I'm lucky to have some two very good friends now. And I feel a million times better having them in my life.

But I'm still very alone in regards to my family.

My mother's side is small - my grandmother, 3 uncles, great aunt and some cousins.

Uncles #1 and 2 caused some sht so we had to cut them off, uncle #3 and grandmother are fine but don't give a sht about us. Our cousins don't either.

My Dad's side is huge but like my Dad they don't care at all. I lived 6 hours from some cousins with my family for 2 years and my parents tried so hard to get my brothers and sisters down there whenever it was holidays but no one, and I mean NO ONE in that huge ass family would help or welcome them to stay.

My step-dads are the most toxic, abusive people you will ever meet. Avoid at all costs.

As a kid and teenager I noticed my friends would often hang out with there cousins, I'm talking maybe once a month at least.

I also noticed my friends would always have uncles, aunts, cousins and grandparents over at their birthdays or for Christmas.

I never really had this.

Barely anyone would show and the few who did felt like they had to be instead of actually wanting to be.

We made so much effort over the years, my parents, me, etc. And they just. don't. give. a. sh*t. Not one of them.

Anyone else know the feeling?