Well it's close to the end of the year and I've got to say, this has been the biggest year of personal growth for me ever. Lost 100 lbs and am now under 200, starting going to the gym, kept a steady job, sold a lot of my video games, starting reading more, starting dressing more stylish, etc. As one would expect, this is not enough to get a girlfriend alone. The mental issues are still there, but I'm becoming more comfortable in facing them. I went from never meeting girls to going on dates with 3 different girls in the last two months. The first one just tossed me aside, and the other two were just boring to talk to and way more unattractive than their pictures. (Yes, it was dating sites). Still living that FA life, but with a lot more hope of dropping the F. Honestly though, I hit a point where the idea of sticking to one girl doesn't seem desirable anymore. I kind of like this independence and the man I've been becoming. The few dates I've had made me realize there is no rush to find a relationship I used to think the idea of one night stands sounded silly, but I now I kind of crave that more than a real relationship. I actually have this confidence to talk to women more, even though confidence is such a great meme.

I mean I know I'm not in a position that a lot of guys here are desiring to reach, but I somehow am finding peace for myself. I would honestly advise anyone to hit the gym because ever since I did I've felt way better about myself. I know that it won't have that effect on everyone, but if you haven't tried I think you might as well. The natural testosterone boost has been great for me. I actually have the confidence to approach women now for the first time in my life.

Here's to 2018 and making it a year to remember I guess. I plan on continuing my journey and maybe actually getting somewhere with the girls I meet.