As the post title says, I’ve been spending increasingly long chunks of my days talking to cam girls lately. I’d even go as far as to say I consider a few of them to be my friends because we’ve been talking for hours almost daily for several months now.

I don’t spend much money on cam sites (relative to what some other people spend), but yes, I have spent money on it. I recently did the math and went through old bank statements to work out exactly how much I’ve spent on cam sites over the past 3 years or so and it comes to roughly $950 total. That’s a massive amount of money for me, and I wish I had that money in my hands right now. I’m concerned the amount will increase because lately (as in the past few weeks) I’ve been spending sometimes entire days on cam sites, bouncing around between different models/performers, and a few times successfully being seduced into paying for a private session.

It’s mostly just loneliness. I suddenly feel like I always have someone to talk to whenever I need to just by logging in and finding my favourite models, who now greet me warmly by name and talk to me about my day and ask me questions in a way that most people I interact with in real life never engage with me. Oftentimes, I end up spending money on specific cam girls, not because they ask for it, but because I feel guilty about spending so much time with them without paying, and I realise it’s their job.

I don’t know, I’m not sure my post has a point. I just wanted to tell someone and I thought fellow FAs might understand why it’s come to this for me.