I don't know/think I'll ever be ready to be in a relationship or to start dating. I'm never going to be that self loving, self confident person that you need to be before you start dating and whatnot. I’ve got a bad personality and bad attitude. I’m stubborn, close minded and no longer motivated to make the changes I need. Although I wonder if I never wanted to do the work from the beginning. I’m still trying to figure that one out.

I've let things go long enough in which I've engraved those things into my head. It would probably take a decade plus to fix everything before I'm ready enough to start dating. But at my age, I just don't see the result (if it ever happens) being worth it compared to the effort and time I have to do for it.