And I'm sick of being told that I need to focus on other things, or not think about it so much, or that I need to work on myself all of the other usual things we're told. People have been telling me this for me entire adulthood. I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm weird or just lonely because I want some basic human experience.

Everyone that's always told me this has been married for years, or had no problems finding girls ever. And then there's me, nearly 36 and I have no idea what it's like to sleep next to somebody. And I'm not even talking about sex, which I mean obviously yes I need to. But I just mean the simple experience of being able to lie down next to someone after a long day and enjoy our company in peace.

None of them know what this is like. But how many more god damn lonely weekends and nights alone am I supposed to endure before one of them thinks "hey ya know what, maybe that's actually as bad as he says it is."