I must have a note stamped on my forehead saying "Socially Awkward Freak" because people rarely give me the time of day. Back when I was in the psych ward e everyone was all buddy buddy besides me. Even the other quiet person was included in the conversation meanwhile I'm just there. I don't exist to people. I'm like an object people have to walk around. Worst part is the new people who came in they fit right in... Day 1 they're already included and having conversations. I was only ever spoken to if they needed something. "Are you done?" "Still watching this?" I guess I just reek of social awkwardness.

I'm thinking of joining clubs to gain hobbies and maybe meet someone romantically but I know it's going to be the same thing. Everyone else laughing and talking while I'm alone on the sideline.