It never felt so close to happen yet it failed. I feel like I will never be able to be with someone. Every time is another stupid situation. One was in couple but didn't tell anybody so I couldn't have known, another one wasn't interested in romance, several ones were closeted in lesbian couple (why? it's a weird recurrence I don"t understand) (in my experience though they are really good friends)...

And this one was the most frustrating. We were casually flirting for some time, it really felt reciprocical. We were glued to each other walking, discussing, laughing, some people flagged us, insinuated things... And everything felt so natural, talking about anything just worked right, looking each other in the eyes... But this time, it's the context to blame. We couldn't make it because some stupid events and context made the situation impossible for both of us. It's so annoying! We kept contacts but I guess it won't lead to anything romantic anymore. I tear up every time I think of that hug we shared for the last time, and all of the love and affection I'll never have from her because of those unexpected events.

I feel as if the universe didn't want me to be in couple. Every time another false hope and despair. I'm tired of this.