It feels like nothing has changed no matter how much I work on things and try. Ive been on every dating app imaginable, paid and free. I get little to no likes, ive had female friends help me with my bios and stuff still doesnt help. I struggle to meet people, and im a highly social person i talk and communicate well, im understanding and empathetic, but the women I interact with are either gay, not single, or end up not interested in me for some other reasons. I get the same kind of advice from everyone, "I need to not think about" "I need to be happy being alone" "I need to live myself first" "Fake it till you make it" And so on. Even my therapist just basically said the same stuff and I find it hard to like anything about myself when clearly no one else does, and I just get hated on for basically everything about my physical appearance, in particularly my height 5'4 btw. Like I cant even find anything during my day to day to be happy about im just miserable all the time. What really gets me is the optimism, the blind optimism, not saying its bad to have a positive outlook on things, but im a bit of a realist so when someone says theres someone out there for me or I wont die alone dont worry, it just doesnt feel real, i mean people die alone all the time, innocent and good people die often. Thats just reality, why am I an acception? That makes no sense. Not looking for someone to have a morbid look on life but like I wish someone had some sort of idea about how I felt, inparticularly someone in my life irl. I just dont know what to do or how to handle it and im losing my grip on reality.