I love to hike, swim, and do crazy fitness challenges. I walked 100,000 steps once, hiked a 25km 2,5k elevation mountain in a day, and i now swim 1500 yards 3-4x a week.

But thing is.. it doesnt show, even though im crazy about fitness i am addicted to food and have BED, i once inhaled up to 15k calories in 2 days until i threw up. I really really want to join the swim organization (not competitive) team in my college, but im ashamed because i dont look fit.. i just recently gained 25 lbs in 3 months because my food addiction took me over. And yes i gained 25 lbs while still working out 3-4 times a week and hitting 12k steps in a day.

It stopped when i did one meal a day, and everytime i want to eat i have to go out to buy food because i dont stock any in my house. But now i live alone and food is everywhere. Im only 19. What do i do? Please help :(