Over the last few days I've eaten so much chocolate and leftover foods. I feel so sick to my stomach and ashamed. Everyday I can feel myself getting heavier. At the end of each day I feel sick and grossed out by myself, then I wake up and forget it all. I eat more sweets, I never eat vegetables, I never portion foods. I feel helpless and distracted. I just don't care. I am depressed and have no self respect. My brain is so deprived of dopamine that it wants me to eat constantly. I weigh above 300lbs and I'm only 20 years old. God I pray that something changes. I don't want to die young. I don't want to keep doing this. I have no way to stop. I just feel like I'm slowly killing myself with food.

Thanks for listening to my rant, I needed to get it out of me