I'm 25, weight about 235. and 5'7 I've always struggled with my weight. For a time I was thin at 185-200 lbs. (thin for me) and I felt great. Lost all the weight I had before due to getting swine flu, and just kept healthy habits for awhile. I was 250 lbs in middle school, got h1n1 and lost a ton.

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Fast forward to college, I'm going to the gym alot and eating healthy, then my fitness friend graduated and I started putting the weight back on. I was broke in college so eating right was a bit easier, now I have a well paying job and this makes things harder to control.

Now I'm 4 years removed, and back up to 235. I have a food addiction which is what brings me here. I love eating, especially night eating. I don't eat much through the day but come night I'm a ravenous fiend. The weed doesn't help that.

Uber eats makes this even harder, since I don't like to cook and hate cleaning the mess. I don't like going to the gym alone, yet I love being at the gym when I finally get there.

How can I get myself back under control? I might be a candidate to give my mom a Kidney, but they say I'm too fat and need to get down to about 205, which just feels impossible... It's so hard to stick to a diet, I try and usually end up breaking it.