Okay so it was his birthday, and we went out drinking with his friends. Although I’m not a heavy drinker, I kept up with them until I decided I wanted to go home because I couldn’t handle the alcohol anymore.

Fast forward, he took me to his apartment, and I was so drunk that I wasn’t aware of what I was doing, I felt almost unconscious. I remembered him saying he wanted to have sex and that he was really horny, and I let him because I tend to get wild when I drink. We ended up having sex, and I was extremely uninhibited and aggressive.

Alright so before we went further, just FYI I’m not into ANAL SEX because I find it unethical and unpleasant. I had made it clear to him over our five year relationship that I didn’t want to engage in that.

Continuing on, we were having sex, and he was in control. Suddenly, he started whispering about wanting to go in my other hole. He asked to do anal, and despite saying NO multiple times, he was insistent. He wouldn’t accept NO for an answer. I remember him saying, “But you love me, right? We should do this if you really love me,” which made me feel guilty, so I reluctantly said YES. I was very drunk and felt helpless.

So, we went ahead with it, and it was rough and painful. I really didn’t enjoy it and didn’t want to do it again, but he seemed pleased to see me in discomfort. I cried when I got home and told myself that if he ever tried it again, I would end things. aaandd gues what he did? That's right, he did want it again and when I said NO very firmly, he got really angry. So, I decided to end the relationship.