Have you ever wondered if there was something more to life then this everyday grind that we go through. We are like gears in a machine just doing the same thing every day to make it through another day. I've been thinking about this more and more lately and decided I want to try and get out of my the same monotonous day to day routine I have been stuck in for the last few years of my life.

Let me give you some context I went to school for accounting I know, your probably thinking well if you had gone to school for something more exciting you wouldn't be in this situation, well to answer that statement I would say I wanted a job that would be stable. I've learned now stable isn't always the best thing, I want a little excitement, something new that will truly amaze me. I've decided the best course of action to achieve this breaking of the routine and getting free from the day to day grind would be to quit my job and go on a true adventure.

I sat at home unemployed and staring at my computer screen wondering what this true adventure I dreamed of could be. Thinking about it now I may have jumped the gun on quitting my job, I have no plan and very little funding to spend on my no plan adventure. I was tired I had been sitting at home doing nothing all but was just so tired, I decided I should go to bed and could think of something tomorrow. As I laid in bed I felt empty like something was missing but I just couldn't decide what was missing.

I did not sleep a wink I just stared at the ceiling all night think about what I was missing, you see I don't feel free from the machine that I was stuck in before, but lost without it. I rolled out of bed and went to and went to the bathroom to get a shower. While showering I saw my shaver and decided to shave which is odd because I thought I wanted to break free from this old routine but I'm falling back into it already. Waking up showering shaving then it would be off to work if I had a job.

While shaving I became lost in thought and nicked my neck with the blade, it made me jump but just feeling that little bit of pain from the small cut felt as though it was just what I needed. I got out of the shower and cleaned up the cut looking at the blood on the tissue I was using to wipe it up and it made me feel good like a weight was lifted from me but that weight was not lifted for long as I was soon feeling how I had felt the previous day lost and looking for an adventure.

The more I think about it maybe I was not stuck in a day to day routine or a gear in am machine but I was stuck in a loop with myself and wanting to do more then what I was capable of. I took the easy way in life, a stable job, no girlfriend or wife, a small apartment, everything I did was to keep my life simple and easy for me to maintain. But what if its not adventure I'm looking for but to restart and do this all over again? Ever wonder how your life would be if you could start over? Well I can tell you I have now since I started writing this 2 months ago, I have not left my apartment I am in debt, I am alone, covered in small cuts in hopes of finding some feeling.

I'm done trying to find feeling through small pains that bring a second of euphoria and am ready to press the reset button on my life. If you are reading this then I most likely have reset myself I just want to tell you all to question life and if it is really as bad as you think. If you truly believe it is then look to hit that reset button and join me in a new start on life one where you can truly be what you want.