This election is going to kill me. I suppose a lot of us may be feeling excess stress in our bodies as a result of the election, whether we recognize it or not. I realized too late I’d been tensing all my muscles and I pulled a muscle in my neck. It’s been spasming nonstop and incredibly painful. I can’t look to the right at all. I can’t hold my head up or look down for long. My husband is somehow mad at me for this? He’s usually such a support.

In addition; today would’ve been the first day of work—my start date—for an awesome job I worked incredibly hard to earn. Nearly 6 figures!, amazing benefits, opportunity for growth, perfect use of skills and interest, casual, but long hours and would be difficult to accommodate my illness. So, after two years of talks and educational prep, I turned it down. I’m crushed. I’ve been grieving.

Tell me it gets better. This has been such a shit couple of weeks.