I am so angry and sad and pissed off and I don't even know where to start. I keep having to have days off or part days off because my fibro will not let me have a moment where movement isn't a struggle. My commute is hell because I can't drive especially not because I'm on medical marijuana at night and if I get drug tested it goes on my record and I could lose my job and my career and I just feel like my body is in a death spiral I can't pull up from. I can't afford to work less but I can't properly recover either.

I'm already obese and I've put on weight recently and like I watched the whale and just sobbed the whole time because I'm scared that will be me some day and I just have nowhere to let this out where it's properly understood.

Sorry for the rant.