I am a married female (25) and my husband and I have seriously been considering having a baby for the past year. All of my emotions around it are very confusing though.

The past year I go through months long period where I desperately want to get pregnant and feel ready for the “next stage of our lives.” Then, after two or three months of trying, I start to panic and feel like I’m making a big mistake. Like everything will change, we will probably be child-care broke, and we won’t be able to travel internationally like we are enjoying now. I also start to panic about taking care of enough human 24/7 when sometimes it feels hard to take care of myself? (Prone to depression and anxiety.)

I feel concerned and confused that this back and forth keeps happening. I feel so strongly about it for like 3 months and then my emotions can change so quickly. Anyone else in the same boat?

My husband wants to wait at least a year to start trying again (if we decide to) and wants me to consider child-free as an option since I keep expressing so many concerns about parenthood.

Is it normal to panic when trying to conceive or feeling like you’re having second thoughts? Has anyone else backed out?

Worries about making a permanent decision to be a parent and then regretting it or realizing that it will change everything just not for the better