Idk why I'm posting this, I just want to shout into a void because I'm so happy. I have always been kinda insecure about my interests in being dominated, I've never gotten the chance to properly explore it as I'm unwilling to simply pay a professional, for whatever reason. I have also been very unsure about if I truly enjoyed femdom as many kinks are hard turn offs for me, usually cruel kinks like extreme degradation or humiliation. I enjoy gentle femdom, but don't mind more milder, playful forms of being toyed with.

A friend found out about my interests, especially my praise kink, and she has been all over me. She's figured out how to melt me into a subby puddle, and does so very liberally. I get so floaty and fuzzy knowing that I'm safe to be who I want to be around her. She's well aware of how much control she has over me, and uses that control to be as kind and caring as possible. I've never felt so validated, safe, and secure in my entire life. It almost feels like I've "come home" in a sense, any doubts I've had have been blown away and I know EXACTLY what I want out of a relationship.