Title ig, I don't really use reddit often so I'm sorry if this is formatted poorly

I am trying to do a little self exploring as my last relationship was very unfulfilling, I don't feel satisfied trying to lead a relationship so I thought I'd look into seeing if femdom was something I'd be interested in. I've run into a bit of a roadblock however as I've seen an overwhelming amount of femdom circles where the man is being degraded or humiliated. While I'm generally open to trying new things, I know for a fact that I do not like this kink, I have been in an emotionally abusive relationship and seeing people be degraded so harshly is very triggering for me, and I'm worried that if I try to experiment with femdom it's just going to result in old wounds being torn open.

As a man I'm very emotional and soft, especially around people I am comfortable with, so the idea of someone using that to try and humiliate me is a huge turn off, and I'm decently well endowed so hearing a woman tell me I'm not big enough just feels weird, I don't really want to brag about it, it just sounds weird when I'm very confident in what I'm packing.

So my question is, if possible, how would I go about exploring myself if I don't want to be humiliated?