Hello,

I am a 34 year old guy and I just want to tell the story that changed me.

I always was a vanilla guy. My sex life was (and still is) almost nonexistant.

A couple of years ago I found out reddit and a subreddit where people post ads to have "fun" online and I decided to give it a shot. I found a couple of girls there and it was really fun. There I met a girl who was a sub (I really had no idea of those kinks before). I had some fun with her but I was feeling like I was out of my waters. I was feeling that that role didn't suited me. I felt that I was more like her than the guy she was looking for.

So I decided to put an ad looking for a woman to take control of me. I didn't had any luck but I kept posting and eventually, one day, I got a message from a throwaway account. In her message she said that she wanted to know more about me and she explained briefly what she was looking for. It felt like she was strict but really inviting. She said about some kinks I was reluctant about but I really wanted to explore so I gave it a try.

We started messaging and she immediatelly explained in detail what she was looking for and her rules. I still wasn't sure about it but I was curious to try, so I agreed to follow them. She was aware that I haven't done anything like this before so she started taking it on me slowly. I am pretty shy and introvert but her way was great. After a while I felt like she really knew me. Like she was understanding what I was feeling and she was acting accordingly.

She introduced me to her kinks in such a smooth way and I loved everything of her. She was strict in a really intellectual way. She turned me into something new. After a couple of days, I was turned on even by hearing the notification sound of her message.

Unforunatelly it didn't last long. After about a week she was feeling sick and visited the hospital. She was diagnosed with Covid and stayed at the hospital for a few days. Eventually the doctors said she could get back home and I haven't heard from her since then.

After a couple of months I was conviced she won't message me again so I start posting ads again. But I got nothing since then.

I think like she was once in a lifetime. I really hope she's doing well.