I'm feeling confused. I'm a woman and know that I'm submissive at my core, it's how I've always been, but I have switched in the past and discovered that I have dominant desires. I expressed those desires a handful of times, emotionally exhausted myself and haven't had those feelings for maybe four years. Now, im feeling them again but something else, too. I know sexuality is fluid so maybe I'm looking for a concrete answer whether there isn't one.

Regardless, being a Domme, exercising and expressing femininity in that way is different even from the way a man dominates, isn't it? A Domme can own and use her sub's cock as her own, maybe even go as far as adopting masculine habits or clothing, but it's still rooted in femininity.

To veer off topic for the purpose of comparison, sissies. That’s a man embracing femininity to the fullest extent but what's the female version of that? I've never heard of masculinization. If anything, that leads us to butch lesbians, which still isn't the antithesis of sissies. Straight, masculine women exist, i.e. Rhea Ripley. She's feminine enough to be lusted after but undoubtedly masculine in appearance and ability.

I'd really love to know if I'm misunderstanding or misinterpreting this. Or is it exactly the same: there are men out there that are receptive to a woman having masculine fantasies, in the same vein that men have submissive fantasies? It just doesn't seem like it's the same to me but maybe I have it wrong and I'm trying to compare apples to oranges. I feel frustrated wanting to be more masculine.