Hey all,

I'd really appreciate some input on my situation!

This isn't the first time I made a post about becoming "too" emotionally involved in dynamics and struggling with it.

Last time I got a lot of positive feedback that validated my feelings, and allowed me to learn to like that aspect of myself and to look for people that matched that.

I'm here because I'm left feeling like an idiot all over again.

I know that meeting people online has an added layer of difficulties to it, but I just can't understand how I always end up with people that make me regret my vulnerability in the end.

Every time a dynamic ends for me, I just feel so much remorse for holding kink so close to my heart. I genuinely wish I was cold and detached enough, to be unfazed by all the shitty experiences I end up going through.

I love being a Domme and exploring that, but every single time I allow myself that joy I'm also opening the door for a painful heartbreak. And yeah I know that's just how it is, but isn't there a way to make it all feel less intense? I just end up feeling like a weirdo, for feeling so much for people.

But anyway, any input is welcome! Thanks!