I’ve been an active slave almost 15 years. Most of that has been spent owned by one Domme. Long story made very short, a few years ago she released me and we went our separate ways. I met a few different Dommes after that. Anyway, almost a year ago I decided to take some time off of D/s. I’m an alcoholic and during this time I checked myself into rehab and working at sobriety. I’ve been sober since June and really feel good. This is the first time in 15 years that I’ve neither been in a Femdom relationship nor under the influence and thinking clearly.

The problem is that I can’t orgasm. I started thinking that maybe because I needed permission for so long that i just can’t without it. I decided to have scene with a professional Domme and when she gave me permission I orgasmed with no problem so I know it’s nothing physical. I figure it has to be a mental thing where my brain just believes it has to be allowed an orgasm to have and orgasm or something. I’m posting because I’m curious if anyone else has ran into this? If so do you know any “drills” or techniques to get over it? I feel maybe my mind is so conditioned that maybe i just need time but it does get really frustrating. Any advice or related happenings would be helpful. Thank you.