Hello! I’m somewhat new to femdom.

Not exactly that new, because femdom in my life for 2 years. But I still don’t really understand it. Don’t get me wrong, I get the idea of it. But I can’t describe what it is to me.

My boyfriend told me two years ago that he is a sub and asked me, what I think of D/s, femdom, (and so on). At this time, I didn’t really know what that is and I said, that I will inform me and will tell him if it something for me. I wanted to do everything on my own (he wanted to help me but I didn’t want help) – the research, finding out what it is, how to be a domme, making sessions, etc. And one day, I stopped doing it.

I put this topic “on hold”.

I haven’t learned anything while doing my researches and I still don’t get what it means to be a domme. My boyfriend is not pressuring me into being a domme, no.

I, for myself, like the idea of being one. But I fail at implementing it in my/our lives because it overwhelms me and maybe because I don’t know what femdom really is. What feelings you should have when “you do it”. It's like something is blocking me.

Does anyone know what I’m feeling? Has anyone tips on how I could “reset” it and start anew? Maybe there is no universal solution to my problem.

Right now, I’m questioning my whole life because I’m not feeling myself. Maybe that’s also a reason, why I can’t think of anything.

Please no hate, I'm just genuinely asking for advice.