Posting here to keep myself accountable!

As I mentioned elsewhere, I'm transitioning out of a long term BDSM/hypnokink dynamic, of which denial and edging was a significant component. I achieved streaks of 222 and 271 days without orgasm.

I've been making myself orgasm freely for a couple of weeks now. At first I made a rule not to edge and deny for more than one overnight because I found it put me in a headspace that wasn't conducive to healing heartbreak, but, I've got the house to myself next Tuesday-Saturday and so I'm going to use it as an opportunity to experiment with finding enjoyment from edging without submission, just for myself.

My current plan:

10 days of denial (11-20 March)

• Day 1-5 - edging by hand only - no toys - increasing the number of edges incrementally with the days. So today, 1 edge. Tomorrow, 2.. etc.
• Day 6-10 - To be decided! But more indulgence, starting Tuesday evening, and ending with an orgasm on Saturday before my partner gets home (OR, if I'm doing really well, then maybe with him!).

If I find the denial becoming overwhelming in a way that's harmful to my mental health, then I'll stop immediately. I can also use the half way point as an opportunity to reset, and do 5 days followed by 5 days.

I think I'm going to order some new toys, hopefully they will arrive around day 6.

I imagine I will update here (or perhaps r/edgingtalk) as I won't want to be playing all by myself - but we'll see. Okay, wish me luck!