I knew I would be fucked this year.

A while back I set up a poll asking for an ungodly amount of edges, and was surprised when you all delivered. I have to do a minimum of 5555 edges before I can have a chance to cum.

My master has been using this to his advantage. I'm edging constantly under his command, sleeping with my toys in for him to wake me, spanking my ass red when he says. Even just now I slapped my ass with a wooden spoon a total of 300 times on each side! God it hurts so much, but every strike made me ache even more.

I've broken my previous record for denial already! My best USED to be 700 edges. As of now, my count is 820!! I'm incredibly proud I've made it this far, and so quickly. Last week, it seemed like it wasn't effecting me all that much, but once I got home for the holidays, it really started to hit me like a freight train. I've been throbbing so often, my mind wandering at every moment to how I should be rubbing next, wondering how quickly I can get through my assigned 5555....

But of course, with a new year comes new opportunities, new challenges. Last night, on New Year's Eve, my master had me edging before I went out. I reached... I don't even know how many, I just know I was aching and hoping for more. In a spur of the moment decision, I asked if I could ruin so that I may start the new year with a fresh slate- and he agreed!!

With a condition, of course.

If I ruined, I would have to accept whatever punishment he decided. I wouldn’t know what it was until after the new year started.

I agreed right away. I wanted that fresh start, and I wanted a little release. I truly should have thought it through, but I was blinded by need. And so he let me ruin- not once, but twice!!! They were intense, and it was a struggle to keep my hands away from my aching, aching clit. I soaked through the shorts I was wearing, and left a puddle on my bedsheets. It was a great way to end the year!!

Of course, it didn't alleviate my need at all. In fact, it made it so much worse. The whole time I was out, it wasn't just my clit that was throbbing, it was my entire pussy clenching with need, a feeling that hasn't stopped since I woke up today, and is most certainly not going to stop with master's punishment.

In exchange for ruining, the next chance I have to cum will be October 26th, a full year since my last orgasm. I'll have chances to cum, of course, on my birthday and once I've finished the 5555. Hearing this, my knees went weak and my pussy throbbed even more. He even has given me a chance to cum again with another poll- I'll make a separate post for that, as I know exactly how all of you will vote for that one.

So now my fate is sealed even tighter 🫠🫠 no orgasms for me for so fucking long, and it's already driving me insane. Why do I insist on making my need even worse?